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Lonely is a very dangerous thing to be

2011-12-01T08:48:00.006+08:00

Hi December, goodbye November.

It's been 2 months since I've blogged.
I'm just too busy with my UTs and assignment.
Everything just ended. However, it's coming again.. (geez... -.-)
Well basically, I've nothing to blog too. Hah.
Going out today with my dear (Meiyu) to watch 'Already Famous'. (:
And... I'm pinkish today! :\

Actually, I'm kind of sad these days.
But definitely won't say it here for now.
Still in school. Hahaha. -.-
Uh, so... blog later maybe?

Ciaos...

Love does not follow logic

2011-09-01T16:09:00.007+08:00

Yeah. So, I'm back to make a post again.
I am not going to make it too long about my life and I'll just type out whatever I think or feel...
I just want to let my thoughts run once in awhile, so that I can sort things out.
Wouldn't want to say much about my life cuz I'm not interested in it.
Sorry if I get a little too emotional in my post. It's just what I've been thinking and what I've felt.

Well let's see...
My exams' over since Monday and today's already Thursday.
Guess its kind of fast but it's still boring, as always.
I've been playing DN (Dragon Nest) these few days. A new mmorpg game. Seems cool.
However, it's getting more and more... boring.
Too many people's playing and it's lagging like crazy.
And I guess I've been sleeping quite late since my exams' offically over, for this semester.
It was kinda crazy. I slept at 4.30am in the morning (today) and I have to wake at 9am.
Now, I definitely look like someone who has not been sleeping for few days.
This feeling sucks too. I feel like I'm gonna faint anytime, anywhere.
Oh well, whatever. As long as I'm alive, who cares anyway?
So ya, thats probably all for my life. Simple isn't it?

Love, what really does it mean?
You love someone, so you never want to fall out of their favor.
You always want to be their number one.
There's nothing wrong with putting all your heart and effort into pleasing that person you love.
Is there a limit to how much you can love somebody?
When I feel emotionally unsteady, even wounds that would seem laughably small to other people, for me, they can run quite deep...
Someone once said that love really starts after you've gotten together, and i think they got it right.
The more intimately you come to know each other, the more you're at the mercy of every casual remark that comes out of their mouth.
No matter how much you love them, they'll never truly be 100% yours.
Never.

I don't know what to feel

2011-08-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

I seriously wish that someone is here to understand.

Insignificant me

2011-08-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

This doesn't happen 1 time or 2 times, but multiple times.
That is why I am so upset, disappointed and angry about it.
I am not being unreasonable but I'm already trying to be reasonable.
Why am I angry is because I'm always trying but you guys can just give me any kind of excuses to turn them down.
Why will I be so upset and disappointed is because you guys are just too important to me but it seems like to you guys, I'm not and you all don't even realise it.

Sometimes it makes me wonder why am I trying so hard.
So what if you guys are important to me? I am not anyway.

All makes me feel so terrible, useless and unloved.
It makes me feel like crying when I'm typing all these out.

Am I really unreasonable?
Am I really thinking too much?
Go think about it.

Just how many excuses do you guys want to give?

Laziness wins everything

2011-08-05T10:28:00.003+08:00

Enough is enough

2011-07-30T11:55:00.005+08:00

I had enough of getting to you people.
Family, friends?
Nah. Enough of all those.
So I will just shut up.

I'll just talk to those who really care.
I don't need hypocrites in my life.
After so many things had happened, I now clearly know that who's my true friends and who're the one who truly care.

Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life...
But sometimes they just don't appreciate it...

I need some love

2011-07-26T10:31:00.003+08:00

Maybe i'm the one who's being unreasonable here or i have some weird-ish feeling of things or so.
I no longer know what's wrong with me and I have got no more strength left to move on.
I need some motivation or even some hug.
I need the strength to move on. I need my friends.

Maybe, just maybe, I could use a hug right now.

The more you care the more you have to lose

2011-07-24T11:04:00.005+08:00

You do know how much I miss you, yeah?
I'm SO SORRY for missing you over and over again.
I know that I'm annoying.
I'm sorry but I just can't stop missing you.
I'm sorry for being so useless again.
I'm very very very sorry.
Sorry.

Hope that you read this and maybe, say something...

-x.

Dear guys. if you like a girl, don't make her start the conversation, cause then she worries she's being annoying. sincerely, every girl.
- via (wordsthatyouneverknew)

It's better to just not feel anything at all.

It's just the matter of time of me and you being strangers one day

2011-07-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

Life's been weird. It's crazy.
Well... shit it.
School is like a living hell for me,
Fuck, so sick of daily routines like this,
I sleep early, I'm tired, I sleep late, I'm still tired.
What the hell?

like... what?!

“I don’t wanna hurt you cause I don’t think it’s a virtue
But you and I have come to our end
Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you again” — Lily Allen

Never let your future gf feel the same way as I do. I wish you all the best.

2011-07-12T18:03:00.006+08:00

You still doesn't know that the things that you say or do still hurts.

If you say you're here, you're here.
If you say you're not here, you're not here.
It's your mouth, it's your say.
I'll just believe it and then not care about it.
I don't think I have any other choice but just try to not care about it and get on with life.
I cannot just follow everything and believe anything you say sometimes.
Cuz it really hurts and I have so many things to care about too.
I can't just forget about other stuffs and start to get depress again.
You do know how hard I am trying already, no?
It's really up to you to speak the truth.
It's your say.

Life is cruel, death is free

2011-07-07T11:28:00.001+08:00

I guess I am thinking too much, again.

New Phone

2011-06-20T21:18:00.007+08:00

When i'm tired, don't try to piss me off or else i'll just scream at you and cry at the same time...
and i will not give you face regardless of where and who are you...

Got a new phone.
Not iphone, not blackberry.
It's just a normal sony ericsson, xperia x8 phone(if i'm not wrong, i am too tired).
Okay, that's all.
I have a lot of things to do,
Bye.

The feel

2011-06-18T15:17:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like giving up.

It would be a lie to say i'm not afraid anymore

2011-06-12T16:07:00.003+08:00

But sometimes, everything just come at you and you don't know how to handle it...

"At least, help one another?"
Like how? I don't know anything, i'm just plain stupid and useless.
And i don't know why either.

I just feel v weird if i keep call people to help me..
and i cannot always call people to help me, right?
They're not like some of my friends.
They will sure be feeling that i'm very useless or anything.
That is why i feel so, moody.
Actually, is me, myself that hates my own self.
Thats why im not happy with everything.

Its not easy for me, not easy at all.
Yes i know a lot people say don't just whine and do something about it.
But see, i'm still here, trying my best isn't it?
I whine about things is because that i want to say everything out so i can feel better and not become someone who has got like mental problem because i've keep on trying and trying and there's no one to talk to about the things that i feel that its difficult for me.
Different people have different views.
Some things that i feel that are difficult for me, doesn't mean its difficult for you.
Some things that i feel that are important to me, doesn't have to mean that its important to you too.
So i just someone who can listen to me, properly. And someone who's willing to support me whenever i'm feeling down.
I don't need great advises or scoldings. I just want someone to be here, listen to me, understand me.
And then, from the bottom, tell me that he/she will support me, be there for me.
And, don't break the promises too..

Why does everything have to be so hard?

2011-06-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

I just NEED and WANT someone who can really understand me.
Is it so difficult?

How much more?

2011-06-08T14:54:00.005+08:00

So many things, so many troubles, so many problems.
What can i do to solve it?
How much time do i need?
Why aren't there any solutions to it?
Why can't i help myself?
Why can't my life be more simplier?
Why is it so complicated?

I'm lost.

When everything is not on your way, not on your side...

2011-06-07T01:27:00.003+08:00

I really don't know.
Why am i feeling all these? Why?
I've no idea...

The only reason i know is that i'm too weak...

Yes it is

2011-06-04T00:32:00.003+08:00

You know that feeling?
When you're just waiting.
Waiting to get home, into your room,
close the door, fall into bed,
and just let everything out that you kept in all day.
That feeling of both relief and desperation.
Nothing is wrong.
But nothing is right either.
And you're tired.
Tired of everything, tired of nothing.
And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay.
But no one's going to be there.
And you know you have to be strong for yourself,
because no one can fix you.
But you're tired of waiting.
Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else.
Tired of being strong.
And for once, you just want it to be easy.
To be simple.
To be helped.
To be saved.
But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping.
And you're still wishing.
And you're still staying strong and fighting,
with tears in your eyes.
You're fighting.

Who cares about it?

2011-05-31T15:04:00.004+08:00

We're just not fated to, isn't it...?
(Sigh...)

My shoulder and back hurts... uh...

You should just die, like seriously

2011-05-28T20:51:00.008+08:00

Look at this.

I HATE YOU FOREVER.

I will never regard you as anything.
You're just a shit.
I don't care who you are to me.
You are always ruining my mood. Forever.
I will never get any peace when im with you.
I am not being immature or having any moodswing now.
I clearly know what i am saying.
And I don't need you AT ALL TOO.
When did you ever help me?
You're just a bias shit.
You don't even have any right to say me.
You JOLLY WELL knows that you're WORSE than me.

You suck. Just go and die.
And you better remember all this.
I will NEVER, EVER, forgive you.

Not a toy, or a thing

2011-05-25T21:46:00.005+08:00

Let me emphasize on this once again; I AM NOT SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN USE AND THEN THROW IT ASIDE.

Hi Mr ____,
This post is specially for you.
Look, i think the way you treat friends is really wrong.
What is with all those commands from you?
Am i your dog? Your maid? Or anything that you belongs to you and you can anyhow use me when you like it and then throw me away like a trash?
I know you've helped me before and i appreciated it.
It's not like i didn't say 'thankyou' isn't it?
And why do you keep on telling me all this shit like,
"wah lao, i everytime help u, i ask small favour, u liddat" ??
Huh? What the fuck is this you tell me?
So all these while, you helped me just because you want something from me?
You always wanted me to repay you huh?
It's not that i shouldn't repay or what, i never said that i never wanted to help you but, if you really take someone as a friend, you don't ask people to repay them for what you've did or helped them.
This is all so wrong. Too wrong.
Friends are there to help each other, without calculating so much things on it.
You help people because you want that person to be happy, no?
And when you see other people are happy, you will be the same, right?
And oh, btw, your favour is,
"hi, rmb call mi (EVERY MORNING), make it ur daily schdule, <3"
Hah? daily schdule? And whats with the HEART SHAPE?
To make me feel "better"?
And, without even a thanks from you?
Who do you take me as?
You said that i'm your 4TH ALARM CLOCK. Hah. Whattheshit.
You might be joking but this isn't a very wise way to joke about.
You are just showing people that you are taking that person FOR GRANTED.
And, your favour, ISN'T a small favour.
"EVERYDAY" is not a small favour already.
Somemore, it is during SCHOOL DAYS and its in the MORNING.
Please, mind you, i wake up earlier than you and i'm already THIS TIRED AND STRESS.
And you are just adding up more tiredness and stressfulness.
Adding up my workload isn't funny i tell you.
And actually, these days, i didnt even ask any help from you.
And you still have the cheek to say,
"MOST of the time (you helped me)" and you even capitalised the "most".
So are you finding excuses to call me to help you because you dont feel like saying a thanks to me or what?
And again, do you always criticize your friends too? Especially your GIRL friends?
You said i'm ugly and all.
All those bad things, then why do you still want to be friends with me?
Is all these "friend friend" thingy a fake? You just wanted to use me?
Because you have no friends in the class only for me?
Again, who the hell do you think you are and who the hell am i to you? AND, WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME?
You should really stop this man...

It's not that i want to say all this but you're really getting more and more overboard and ridiculous.
Although i know that you doesnt know my blog (i know you've asked for it before but i purposely doesn't want to reply you)
Please reflect it.
I do hope that you do, cuz it is also for your own good.
Remember this - "Don't take someone for granted otherwise someday, you'll regret it."

Thank you.

You are the one

2011-05-24T14:37:00.002+08:00

I know that I'm not good at all.

Oh, btw i'm still in class, but the lesson's over!
This is the first time the class ends earlier than ever.
New media hmm. Learnt about HTML codes.
It is definitely not easy...
Alright let's just skip that. It's gonna be so boring if i continue the school stuffs.
So yes, been wondering how's life for my friends (that's in other school).
UTs(Understanding Tests) came, yesterday was Cognitive UT.
It was alright, just uses some common sense and english words..
Yeah, saw the 'english words'?
People that knows me knows that my english language sucks.
But surprisingly, i know what that word is! (yay-ness?)
Hahas, this must thanks to me and Noelle who helped me to find the meaning of the word.
And as for me, glad that i didn't waste my time looking thru 6P(6th presentation)?
Haha. Alright, i shall go home now before others (gotta wait for the bus) =_=
So yup, i shall go home and study my Science before i die tml....

why do i miss you so much..?

How to?

2011-05-11T12:20:00.002+08:00

Now i really wonder how am i going to survive for these whole 3 crazy years.
What should i do?
What am i suppose to do?
And how can i do it?

My god, this is really crazy.
Tsk.

Everything just seemed out of control.

2011-05-01T15:33:00.005+08:00

School's definitely not fine.
I don't know where it went wrong.
I just want my life to be peaceful, really.
So, i'm writing this to my brain.

Dear Brain,
I wish you can pity me and give me a break.
Stop thinking and over-concern things too much.
You've got much more important things to think about.
Not all those stupid nonsense.
So please, think something else which is much more important.
Or else the grades will just maintain or go down,
which i know that you definitely wouldn't want it.
I'm also trying my best to give you ample of rest,
so start thinking of studies instead of friends who doesn't even care about you.
Thankyou.
From Jia Yi.

And i wonder.. How can people be this heartless?

No, no, never.

2011-04-22T13:07:00.004+08:00

Is it just me, or is it you guys doesn't know what a team is all about?
I'm sad.

And about that,
i'm no longer interested about it.
I'll just wait for every memories to fade..

New life?

2011-04-08T22:40:00.007+08:00

Hmm, is it nice? My sister helped me with those while i'm watching TV program..

Okay, so, school's starting soon.. on the 18th.
There will be Orientation Programme on the 13th - 15th too.
So... sms me when you need me... I'll try to reply ASAP.

& do you know how worried i am..?
can you at least reply me please?

@ Will's house, again.

2011-04-05T19:06:00.002+08:00

Hi. I am at William's house again.
Now this time, we're cooking dinner.
It is a mess. But, it's better than the 1st time when they cook.
This time, i'm also cooking with them.
And also, this time round there's Me, Yi Yuan, Hermann, Mei Yu, Guo Hao and obviously, William.
Well, the dishes looks good though.
Smells... Okay. =)
Alright, i'm going to help them now.
So, bye.

Egoist you.

2011-03-30T19:13:00.003+08:00

Have you people gotten your graduation cert yet?
Remember to go get it if you hadn't.

So, i've finally graduated from secondary school.
I guess i'll miss those happy times when i'm in poly.

Shut up K. Just get lost.

2011-03-28T01:01:00.006+08:00

If you people still don't understand me, then i can only say you guys are stupid.
Cuz i've done explaning about myself.
AND UP TO NOW, if you people still don't know what kind of person i am, then i'm really speechless.
So, if you people really can't understand, then just get out of my life please.
Oh, remember to tell me 1st.
Thank you so much.

I had enough. really.

Friends?

2011-03-27T21:07:00.002+08:00

What are friends for? Just tell me how can you leave your friend alone when he/she is depressed and lost. But, won't blame you. You're not that person's best friend by the way.

Is it my fault?

2011-03-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Why do i feel so retarded, stupid, idiotic?
Is it really my fault that now, this kind of things happened?
Do you really don't want to talk to me?
Don't ignore me pls.

Forever love.

2011-03-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

In love, there's no such things as love fades because true love never fades.

Title-less.

2011-03-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

爱情不是占有。如果连让对方呼吸的空间都没有，那你需要的是一只宠物，不是情人。

Stupid day.

2011-03-21T20:07:00.001+08:00

And i thought that i can get something like today, cuz i need it for tomorrow.
But i ended with nothing.
How dumb is that? =.=

Feel me.

2011-03-20T12:33:00.003+08:00

Can't you feel that i'm really sad?
Tell me what should i do, please.

Boring days... School's gonna start on the 18th of April.
Hmm, so that is 28 more days to go. Hope everything will be alright by then.
Still need to go to school at 24th to configure laptop.

Heard that it's gonna be very long, and the worse of it is that it's boring. Gosh. Luckily i have my friends. Or else i will just go crazy just by waiting for the laptop to be okay...

Gotta go out soon i guess. Bye.

猜不透.

2011-03-14T22:00:00.004+08:00

Fark. ^^

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你
从没认真过...

Pray.

2011-03-12T21:37:00.001+08:00

Let's pray for Japan, shall we?
Natural disasters are scary aren't they? :\

@ Will's house.

2011-03-10T12:17:00.004+08:00

Hi. I'm at William's house.
HAHA. I'm sleepy... The guys are cooking...
I don't know if they're successful in it, but they're extremely noisy...
Oh ya, the guys are, Guo Hao, Yi Yuan, William and Marcus.
But, those who're really cooking and always stay in the kitchen are Guo Hao and Yi Yuan.
LOL. =.=
I wanna sleep..................

P/s: It's not that i doesn't want to help. But i'm really, really sleepy. (and bored).

------x.

(Edit)

Okay, my stomach hurts terribly..

ARGH! Sick for 7 days...

Joke. =.=

2011-03-06T15:32:00.004+08:00

Why do i keep thinking that people wants to cheat me?
Joke. My company sucked much.
And I don't feel well at all...

Hermann laopa's bday!

2011-03-04T22:43:00.004+08:00

Everyone knows that Hermann's birthday is at 3rd March right?
But me, Yiyuan, Meiyu and Guohao celebrated with him on the 4th of March because Hermann was busy.
Today was a quite touching day for Hermann i guess? Hahas.
Why? It's because me and Yiyuan have planned how to celebrate his birthday and yea, Hermann said that this was his first time that friends celebrated his birthday with him.
Okay, so, me and Yiyuan bought his birthday present on the 3rd as we know that we're not celebrating with Hermann on that day.
We bought Domokun's handphone pouch and a keychain. We also bought the wrapping paper and wrapped the present up.
Next day on the 4th, me and Yiyuan went to Icing Room to make the D-I-Y cake. Suppose to meet the others at 12.30pm but they were late.
So, me and Yiyuan started to design the cake first. Okay, we've already planned on what to draw anyway.
Anyway, Winnie helped out too. I'm very thankful to her for helping me to make a domokun using chocolates. She also helped in the DIY cake by giving suggestions. If it wasn't her, i don't think i will make the cake so perfectly (to me). Hahas.
While doing the cake halfway, Meiyu came. She kept on looking at me and YY making the cake. She said that she didn't know what to do but, of course, i forced her to contribute something (she put those icing sugar up with YY!) ;)
After making the cake, we went up to the rooftop and slack while waiting for Guohao to reach.
After Guohao came, we planned everything again on how to pull Hermann up to the rooftop without him knowing that we've planned things for him.
And, we went to Tampines Mall, waiting for Hermann.
After Hermann came, we fake fake walk around and say that we have nothing to do so we say that we wanted to go up to the rooftop and play.
But before that, i have to go to the Icing Room to collect both the cake and my bag (-.-). I forgot i put my bag over there...
So me and YY went up to the rooftop and prepare everything while Hermann went to the toilet. Guohao and meiyu and Hermann came after that.
When Hermann saw the cake, he was like, "Wtf?!" Which makes me laugh, and at the same time, I said Happy Birthday to him, followed by the others.
We made Hermann had his wish and blew the fire off the candles.
After that, he was thanking us all the way and he said that other than being thankful, he don't know what to say anymore.
Actually, Hermann didn't wanted to cut the cake as he thinks that its nice. (LOL!)
But no choice, he HAVE to cut. :x After that, i took out some tissue papers and Hermann distributed those slices of cake out.
Ate, and went to dinner together! Hermann's treat. Haha!
After that, went slacking around and then started to feel bored again. Hermann called William and off we go to Will's house. We WALKED there. It was SO FAR! (Haha!)
But i actually didn't mind it at all. (O.O - cuz i was not feeling well)
Went there, played PS3. And then i wanted to go off early as i am really really reallllyyy not feeling well. Yiyuan followed me, of course. Meiyu and Guohao too. I guess they were tired.
So yeah, YY and GH sent us home and they went home together.
So that's all for today! Omgosh, i blogged so long. (=.=)
Photos time!

Work Ended.

2011-03-04T00:20:00.007+08:00

So my work ends at the very last day of February.
It have been a great time with the people around there.
I don't take them as colleagues but friends.
They're all nice people. It's fun to be with them. I like them a lot.

So after i've quitted, i didn't really quite know how should i feel, or rather, how am i feeling that instant.
I asked myself, should i be happy or sad?
Happy because i can finally rest? Or sad because i am leaving them.
Oh well, i know it's not really 'leaving them' but, you guys know what i mean right?
Okay so now, i DO miss them, yes of course. But i am also glad that i can rest now and have time for my friends. BUT, at the same time, i'm sooooo bored.
I can't find what to do other than staying at home to watch my animes or play games.
I did think of going back to work, but, i still don't feel like standing so long. (Haha!)
My leg do hurts okay. My leg needs, or rather, must rest already. Otherwise, it'll be in real trouble.

Yep, so... Everyone knows that i hate blogging so long.. Er... maybe last time but not now.
So now i'll just post some photos up. When it was my last day in TIR, The Icing Room.

Liar.

2011-02-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

YOU, are a big big liar.

296th post - When is it?

2010-11-23T01:15:00.002+08:00

When will this hate disappear...

I wonder...

295th post - Dunch care.

2010-11-15T12:47:00.002+08:00

I don't care already yeah.
kthxbye.

294th post - Retarded

2010-10-10T12:12:00.002+08:00

To everyone:
I'm done trying. If you want me in your life, let me know. Bye.

I'M A RETARDED ASSHOLE. :D

293rd post - 不想再伤心害怕了。

2010-09-21T18:56:00.005+08:00

我不想再伤心和害怕了。。。
I don't want to feel sad and scared anymore...
但我却不知道该怎样没有这些感觉。。。
But I don't know how to stop having all these feelings...
真的觉得好失败。。。
Really felt that I'm a failure...
也觉得很没用。。。
And useless too...

应该是我太担心和想太多了吧。。。
Maybe I've worried and think too much...

啊。。。心事谁能了。。。

292nd post - 怎么了

2010-09-13T21:57:00.003+08:00

Sorry to those who don't know how to read Chinese words.
But i'm just gonna post this in Chinese.
Translations? Maybe next time(provided there's ppl who're interested. =])

“我到底是想太多了呢，或是想太少了呢？”
每一天这样的问自己，却又找不出答案。
有人说我想太多，又有一些却说我想太少了。
所以究竟是太多或太少，我也已数不清了。。。
其实明天是我的数学试卷2和科学（化学）试卷3 但是，我却坐在这，写部落格。
为什么呢？因为我根本就不想学。应该也是因为我不能集中精神。
不知怎么了，我很累，但又不想睡，只想写出我心中的困扰。。。
O水准是越来越近了，我的心情还是那么的沉重。
也不知如何是好。我根本就没那个意志力来逼我去学习。
就算是用逼的，大概也读不下去。
现在的我只求我自己好好地读，不要再浪费每一分，每一秒。
希望我写完了这篇后，我可以好好的睡，然后再起来温习一下，才进考场。
虽然这不是O水准，但我还是想抱握好每一个我能争取的分数。。。

290th post - The feelings are back.

2010-09-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

The feelings are back again.

I hate it. =\

289th post - I thought

2010-08-31T21:08:00.005+08:00

And I thought that i could rely on you.
And i thought i can ask you anything, tell you anything.
But then i was wrong.
It's the same.
Next time i'll really just keep it to myself...

Anyway, if anyone don't like me or anything, please tell me.
Don't want to be my friend, tell me.
Anything about me, tell me.
Don't need to hide, don't need to think that it'll hurt me.
Just be straight forward.
I won't scold, i promise.
I won't say anything, i promise.
I'll just listen to what you want to say about me.
I'll be alright with it. Just tell me. So that i can change.
Thank you.

And sorry if i've offended you in any ways.

288th post - 累了。

2010-08-21T11:51:00.003+08:00

我担心到累了。
我伤心到累了。
我烦恼到累了。
我想到累了。
我哭到累了。

不想再想了。
不想再担心了。
不想再烦恼了。
不想再哭了。

我是真的累了。
真得很累，很累。
我再也不想管了。
你的事，你们的事，任何一个人的事，
我都不再管了，
也不想再去在乎了。
因为到头来，都是我在难过。

287th post - 原来

2010-08-18T20:19:00.002+08:00

原来我根本就没接受这个事实。
感觉很无奈，很痛心，伤心，不甘心。
真的不知道我应该怎么做。。。

286th post - I want to

2010-08-15T12:49:00.004+08:00

I want to have FUN everyday,
I want to enjoy my life everyday to the FULLEST,
I want to laugh EVERYDAY,
I want to be CRAZY(those good one),
I want to be HAPPY everyday,
I want to be STRONG to overcome everything bad/sad,
I just want to have the feeling like last time,
How i use to be so happy, strong and always enjoying my life, love my life.
Always having fun and always laughing despite other problems i have too.
Always being so motivated even though there's no one to motivate me.
I want those feelings back.
I don't want to be so emo and sad anymore.
I WANT TO BE STRONG FOR MYSELF AND OTHERS(those who deserve my care & love)AS WELL.

285th post - Movies!

2010-08-12T19:59:00.009+08:00

OMG! I wanna watch movies!!
I wanna watch 'Love In Disguise'

'Liar Game'

and
'Phua Chu Kang the movie' !!!

So who wanna go and watch with me?

284th post - Barely breathing.

2010-08-06T18:36:00.004+08:00

"I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing."

283rd post - Sad? Cry? or Smile?

2010-07-29T20:41:00.007+08:00

._.

Yes, that's how i feel these days.
I really don't know how to react with things these days.
Should i get sad, cry, or smile?
What should i do?
What should i FEEL?
How am i suppose to feel it?

(And yes, i drew again, using paint...)

282nd post - Wanna die.

2010-07-25T13:23:00.004+08:00

Simple enough? =)
I know it's not nice.
Cuz i used paint to write it.
I didn't want to use photoshop or anything.

Can someone grant my wish pleaseee?

281st post - Inside my heart, it has cried so much.

2010-07-16T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hatred and sadness is the only thing i feel for now.
I wouldn't know when this feelings will stop too.
I just hope it won't affect my studies.
I am physically and mentally tired.
Had enough of everything.

unspeakable cruelty.

280th post - To you.

2010-07-14T21:02:00.001+08:00

Who am I to you?...

Nobody will answer this, right?
Especially you.

279th post - I'm really scared.

2010-07-12T23:11:00.001+08:00

I'm scared.

278th post - Giddy-ness

2010-07-08T21:13:00.004+08:00

It's better to sit down when you're giddy. -.-
Yes, i almost fall today. Sucker.

It's funny when i spelled the word devine.
It's actually divine.
Oh, i've done a lot of weird things today.
Spelled lots of wrong words.
And i can't seems to remember what i've learned.
Oh, how great.
That's why i hate being so sick.
It makes me feel weak and lame. -.-

277th post - Hate weaklings.

2010-07-05T17:35:00.010+08:00

-.-
你这个认真的很弱咧。
而且，你又是自作自受。
早知如此，何必当初呢？

白痴不识相，笨得不得了。
好好的一个人，给你弄得如此下场。
可怜的是她，不是你。
你会变成这样，也是你自己造成的。
活该的是你。

其实，我不应该原谅你，也不应该和你在此成为朋友。
因为我觉得，你根本都没有什么改变到。
你从以前到现在都一样，你只会为自己着想，不管其他人的感受。
你真得很自私，你知不知道？

你自己选择了这条路，又害怕去面对，那你到底想怎样？
你这个认真的很矛盾咧。。
哎呀，算了。反正，你也不会把我的话给听进去，我也不想管。

现在，你终于知道我的感受了吧？
那时你讲到你很厉害似的，可是看起来，你还比我来得糟。
什么心软，全都是在骗你自己吧。
因为如果你会真正的心软的话，你早就已经不会那么做了！

--------------------x. (another person - below this)

(To: S), u might not know who am i talking abt but if u think it's u, ask me 1st.
sigh... what exactly are you thinking about?
are you okay? =\
i really want to know what you're thinking...
but i know you wouldn't tell me...
are your "friends" include me?
i hope not.
(i'm not hoping much, but i just want to be your friend w/o the inverted commas.)

276th post - Please.

2010-07-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

Just tell me truth.
Stop playing with my feelings,
PLEASE.
I beg you...

275th post - Because

2010-07-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

Because you are my love,
Because you are my everything,
I'm waiting only for you...

274th post - The last.

2010-06-05T15:41:00.002+08:00

I'm extremely sad.
Yeah.
I'm utterly disappointed.
In you, all my friends and family.

And this is the last.
Disappointment everywhere, everytime.
I won't share anymore.

Somethings will be good if it's untold.
Farewell.

273rd post - Kill.

2010-06-02T22:57:00.004+08:00

I would be grateful to the one who will be able to kill me.
Maybe not immediately, but tomorrow.
Please end my stupid life.

TYVM.

-T.JY

&idk why did i still cry bcuz of u.

272nd post - Cake making!

2010-05-31T22:35:00.004+08:00

Chinese 'O' level is OVER!!!
Except oral. Yeah. Lols.
After the Chinese papers, i went home with my dear and ate my lunch.
Met Shingo at the MRT control's station at 3pm.
After that went to T1 and designed a cake.
Yeah, it is suppose to be an apology from Shingo.
He thought of going to my house on Saturday and give me a surprise + apology but i went out and he doesn't know where i live. LOL.
So we both decided to go out today and design the cake.
Oh well, the one who designed the cake was me.
Yeah, me. LOL.
It looks so kiddish. Omg.
I didn't really think of what to design but Shingo just went to pay the money or else we will think for very long for the design.
When i'm designing, i kept on laughing and saying that my design sucks.
And i kept on saying: "EPIC FAIL LA DEY."
Lol. Idiotic.
So in the end, the cake becames like this!
Tada! (picture below)

I think it looks like 面包超人's friend, isn't it? =\
I seriously hope not la. T_T

Wanna compare? LOL!!!

271st post - Nobody

2010-05-30T18:32:00.002+08:00

Nobody understands.

And I've stop believing.

270th post - Please understand

2010-05-27T18:44:00.002+08:00

When you’re around someone for so long they become a part of you, when they change or go away you become lost and you don’t know who you are without them. (via elethowl)

I hope you understand this...

269th post - The first 25th.

2010-05-25T21:05:00.036+08:00

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibility; never an opportunity." - Kahlil Gibran

No need to say much and everyone knows what is the day today, yeah?
Yes, it's the 25th.
We both made cards for each other. Lols.
And we do it at the same time (at night, near 12).
Well, me is do halfway then bring to school and do cuz still must think what to write... -_-
But well, i DID wrote a whole chunk for him. LOL.
Like appreciation day like that siol. Damn funny.
And know what? That stupid boyboy go slot in his card in my Reader's Digest book.
When i reached home, he smsed me and ask if i'm gonna read my Reader's Digest.
Then i think, sure got something wrong.
And i purposely sms back, saying that if i bring home then i won't read le.
Then he sms back to ask me to go and read it, don't waste. LOL.
So i somewhat already guessed what is it already.
Aww, so sad hor? No more surprise? LOL.
Nah, when i saw, it was quite shocking.
Although it's write in PENCIL, which he claims that he scared he'll write wrong(LOL), and the message for me is reallyyyy short, but i DID QUITE like that card.
Cuz got a lot of the music notes and there's my favourite colour, blue!
It's really quite nice, simple and nice. Hahas.
Hmm, yeah. Thanks dear. (=

Er... see if you can understanding what i make?

~.-""-.,.-""-.
!~ LOVE~.~ !
".~~25~~."
~.""-.,.-""

.....-""-.,.-""-.
....!~LOVE~.!
....."~YOU~"
........""-.,.-""

Okay i know it's not nice. Sorry. I've tried my best to make it as nice as possible alr. But i think it failed la huh. -.-

Bah..U're treating me coldly again...

268th post - Learnt

2010-05-24T21:34:00.001+08:00

I’ve learnt that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion - not proof, to destroy it. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to others; they’re more screwed up than you think. I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.
(Via elethowl)

267th post - Promise? Crap.

2010-05-22T23:20:00.005+08:00

DON'T PROMISE ME WHEN YOU CAN'T DO IT. CUZ YOU WILL ONLY LEAVE A BIG, BAD IMPRESSION OF YOURSELF. AND I WILL THINK THAT YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A LIAR.

266th post - My playlist

2010-05-22T10:15:00.012+08:00

How much more do you want me to suffer?

Damn... I'm unwell..

I've just remembered this...
And now, i wanted to tell you this...
..
..
..
..
...
.....
........
HEY CHESTER! MY PLAYLIST IS ON THE LEFT SIDE BELOW THERE, BETWEEN MY TWITTER AND CREDITS! And There is the PLAY and the PAUSE over there! If you want to stop the music, just PRESS IT! I bet you it'll SURE STOP. LOL!

i♥myLivejournal. livejournal. livejournal. livejournal.

265th post - I'm tired, wish i can sleep like nobody's business

2010-05-18T16:25:00.003+08:00

I AM TIRED.
AND I WISH I CAN SLEEP LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.
I WISH I CAN HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD.
I WISH THINGS WON'T BE SO RUSHING.
I WISH EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER.
I WISH I CAN DIE EARLIER. (Yes, i want this the most. =])

264th post - Movie (The Last Song)

2010-05-17T19:10:00.004+08:00

The Last Song

Alright, yeah, watched movie with the same company again.
Yepps, movie again. I'm going to be broke soon. Hahas, but it's fun.
This time round, we've watched, 'The Last Song'.(pic on top)
It's quite touching. Most girls cried in the theater i guess?
Well, there's some funny part too.
And as for me, i didn't really cry. Just touched.
This movie is not too bad. It does teach people things like how to accept things in life and such.
After that, went home with my dear.
Oh well, school's starting soon again.
And it's gonna be holiday, again.
Today is just marking day alright.
Taking back papers on Wednesday... (argh!)
I hope i won't get too upset and demoralised by those results.
I'll try to work harder.
Oh and yes, i've started to use my livejournal again. Haha.
I left it there like... don't know how long already? =\
Last year maybe? Oh well, who cares?
Alright, back to work.

And so you're gonna ignore me again, yeah?

263rd post - Movie with friends on 12/05/10

2010-05-14T14:49:00.004+08:00

The Back-up Plan.
Went to watch The Back-up Plan movie with Calvin, Don, Kimie, Sheeleng and Yiyuan on the 12 May.
It was quite a funny movie. Hahas.
Everyone was laughing out loudly in the cinema.
There's lots of people watching it.
So now you can imagine the theater filled with laughters. Hahas.
And yeah, Mid-year exams' over...
And we had this, Intensive Mother Tongue lessons.
It means that we're having Chinese for the whole day... =3=
And that is because, Mother-Tongue 'O' lvl is on the 31st of May...
Which left a few weeks later.
You can even count with your fingers and toes...
(Sigh)... Can't seems to rest. Argh!...
With so much things in my head, i can't even concentrate.
I bet i've failed every of my subject...And That's... Pathetic...
Okay, i'm gonna stop posting now as dear has just come over to my house.
He bought the eggs for me as my sister needs it to cook. LOL.
Thanks dear. (=
And bye peeps.
Oyes! I've linked Don! =D
He had just started his blog. Hahas.

I know that you doesn't want to care anymore...

262nd post - I miss you hell loads.

2010-05-10T21:39:00.005+08:00

I Feel Like Jumping Off The Building.

I simply just don't understand what i am thinking.
Why am i missing you so much?
Tell me why.
I am REALLY TRYING MY VERY BEST to STOP thinking about you.
I can still remember what I've told you.
That message that i've sent you, through MSN.
I can remember those happy days with you.
You know, i hate the feeling of always being so helpless.
I am also trying very hard to let go.
Trust me, it wasn't easy. And i know that you know it.
So tell me what should i do now?
I'm so stressed up and depressed until i couldn't think properly.
And my poor boy there is hearing me pouring out my sorrows.
Those words, which will definitely hurt him.
I feel so sorry for him.
I know he has been trying very hard to make me feel happy and secure.
But, i'm a very bad girlfriend.
I am always making him feel insecure, sad and worried...
And also, he is always giving me the courage to go and talk to you...
And that really needs a bigbig heart to do it.
Imagine you giving your girl the courage to go and talk to her __, and her heart is still with her __, how would you feel?
It's not a very easy job to do it, but he did it.
If it's me, i think i would have cry my head off.
So tell me, what should i do?
I feel like talking to you. I miss you.
But i don't dare to tell you.

261st post - SOCIAL STUDIES SUCKKKKS

2010-05-07T13:48:00.003+08:00

SS sucks!

Die die die die die die die die.
Fail fail fail fail fail fail fail.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Yay, SS die and fail!

=3=

260th post - Sickling(s)

2010-05-04T16:37:00.004+08:00

I HATE THE WEATHER!

Ah, my dear's sick today. ):
Hmm... actually was yesterday..
He has got flu and sore throat.
And today, he got a sight fever too.
And!! He still sends me home because i was not feeling well too.
Had a terrible cramp yesterday, almost vomitted.
Today too, but not as bad as yesterday.
Touched his head and felt a little hot... Don't know is it slight fever.
And ya, he went home and took his temperature.
Ya he got a slight fever.
Aiyo, told him to go home first but he don't want to listen...
He said that he doesn't want to go home. LOL. -.-
Okay la, haha. He's resting now.
Hope he will be alright after the rest.
Cause this is the first time i've seen him sick. O_O
Abit unbelieveable bah, cuz he hardly, really, hardly sick. Lols.
So anyways, thanks for sending me home, boyf. (:
Okays, i'm gonna stop blogging now.
Still not feeling well but no choice have to study.
It's time to start studying now......
Sigh...

259th post - Time is depressing too.

2010-05-03T20:21:00.007+08:00

Time is very depressing after all…
Both happiness and sadness fade away with time…

Hey, i'm sorry for being unreasonable at times.
And thanks for being so understanding too...
Thanks for always accompanying me whenever i'm sad...
Thanks for always trying your very best to console me...
Thanks for always helping me whenever i'm lost, whether it's school work or whatever it is.
Thanks for always giving me ALL your time even when you're busy.
Thanks for sacrificing all your things just for me.
I know you're still trying your best to make me feel happy.
I know you care, i know you're worried about me too.
I'm sorry if i've hurt you...
And i will try my best to stop being so idiotic...
I'm sorry, and thank you.

258th post - JUNSU!!!

2010-04-29T22:05:00.011+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
I WANT MY JUNSU!!!!
Can't go to the airport today as i was sick! (damn it!)
And that my mother doesn't allow cuz ya, im sick plus it's quite late! (damnnnn!!)
I WANT MY JUNSU!!! I WANNA SEE JUNHO TOO!
That's it, there goes my once in a lifetime chance. ):
T_T

-----x.

School is as per normal...
Well... although it is as per normal but it's still bad...
We're sick and tired of many tests and exams.
If they know us well, we're definitely NOT prepared yet...
Ok, maybe some. But most? I don't think so...
I can see that most is depressed about their results...
Yes, it was reallyyyy bad.
And i didn't expect my Mother Tongue grades would be THAT low...
Seriously, totally not up to standard...
Can't stand to see my result slip (so i sat down to see, JOKING-.-) so i quickly let my mother sign it and pass it up to my form teacher...
Oh well... That's it for my MYE too...
I'm NOT prepared.
Oh, maybe i'm prepared to see all my results to be F9. (i seriously hope not)
That's all im going to say...
-STRESSSS-

2504101837x0x0.

257th post - Faker(s).

2010-04-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

Faker(s).

[edit]
i just totally HATE people who waste my time!!!!!!!
Irritating people should really go to hell and die.
[/edit]

256th post - Leave me alone

2010-04-17T14:37:00.001+08:00

Whatever.
Just shut up and leave me alone.

255th post - I've to relax

2010-04-13T20:39:00.007+08:00

"The greatest remedy for anger is delay."

- Seneca

Is it true?

254th post - Tiring

2010-04-10T20:47:00.005+08:00

Why do i feel so restless everyday?
It is so tiring.
I'm tired.
I need to sleep.

And I thank Shee Leng for always being there, without fail. (=
I know we've been like drifting apart..
I would also like to be there for you whenever you need someone.
I'll wait for you to pour out your feelings to me.
Whether is it sad, angry, worry, stress, emotional..?
(Well i know you hardly gets really angry. *envy*)
Just, anything that happens to you.
Although i know there's a very very very very little chance for you to say anything.
But i'll still wait. For you to say anything that you're feeling. (=

And oh, i just realised that i need help in my livejournal.
It's definitely screwed up by me. ._.
Anyone care to help?

253rd post - No time, No mood

2010-04-05T21:33:00.005+08:00

I've got no time and no mood to blog. DAMN.

i've always thought that you would understand,
but then i was wrong.

252nd post - R.I.P, Juniorbibi

2010-03-25T20:00:00.018+08:00

♥JuniorBibi.

Left at 25 March 2010.

Rest In Peace.

"Though distance will hold us apart

But the memories will always be close to heart

Here is time to say goodbye

The hardest word to say

And won't take up too much space

A corner they want in the heart

And that's the warmest place."

- Anonymous

To: My Dearest Juniorbibi(L),

Bi, rest in peace and please take good care of ownself.

I love you and will always miss you.

Nobody can ever replace you in my heart..

You are the best.

I Love You Forever.

From: Tan Jia Yi

This is a video made by my sister... For our dearest rabbit, Juniorbibi...

251st post - Forever was over.

2010-03-18T22:30:00.005+08:00

Forever was over.
Met Yi Yuan at around 12pm+, walked to interchange small mac to wait for Chen Shan.
Chen Shan came and we went to the other bigger mac to study.
I know Kimie and Celeste were there, so i was like, finding them.
Saw them, talked awhile and find place to put our things down.
Bought things to eat as i was really hungry. No breakfast at home.. -_-
So that was consider as, brunch(breakfast + lunch).
After eating, started to take out Chemistry to study.
Kimie and Celeste went to buy some stuffs and they came back after that.
Changed to a bigger place to study as the places was too small.
And it was like, rainning heavily and it was freezing cold.
Yi Yuan lend me his jacket and he went on to read his Chem notes for awhile.
Celeste was begging the weather to stop rainning for at most 10 mins cuz she can't go home with that kind of rainning cats and dogs weather as she had no umbrella. LOL!
Was laughing at her and listening to my music.
Kimie was quietly revising her Social Studies(SS),
and Chen Shan was doing Chemistry too.
After awhile, Celeste went home and Yi Yuan started to teach me Chemistry...
Teach halfway, Chen Shan's bf came, nodded head to him just to tell him that i saw him and turn my head back to my Chem paper. =.=
Yi Yuan gave me questions to do and yeah~ I got all correct! (=
Quite relieved for my progressing in understanding for that topic.
Actually it's quite easy if you understand what the question is asking because it's basically about applying the equations.
Oh well, anyway, A big THANKS to Yi Yuan for teaching me Chemistry.
I will try my best to do well for the test kay?
But i can't promise to do very good or anything yeah?
Sorry for the low-self confidence but yeah, sorry in advance 1st.
Ya so... Most of my time was in Chemistry...
Biology... A little for the Human Eye. Trying to remember the diagram..
Ah, so many things to learn and to do...
Chem, Bio, SS tests.
2Chem, Maths, 3Eng hwks.
All complete it by one week.
One word: Crazy.

I had given your own lifestyle back..

Happy now? Bye.

250th post - Alice in wonderland

2010-03-06T22:02:00.006+08:00

Alice In Wonderland

Watched Alice In The Wonderland with CY and William today!

It's quite a nice movie, that's what i think. Hahas!

Sometimes it's funny too. LOL! But the beginning was quite scary, or consider, thrilling.

Okays, shall not elaborate so much. People who loves fantasy should watch it! (=

Hahas, funny movie and a nice ending.

After the movie, went to Mac to study and eat dinner.

Yi Yuan came and joined us to study.

Then went to popular to buy stuffs and home.

If i don't care, i won't get hurt.

249th post - Beach cleaning for CIP

2010-03-05T21:58:00.005+08:00

Does it really matter?

Oh! The last post was on the first of March.
Hahas, hasn't got the time to post. Sorry. :X
Hmm, let me talk about the CIP that me and my classmates went on Wednesday.
Well, CIP... Everyone knows what's that right?
Yeah, so, at 1:15pm on Wednesday, when it's suppose to be assembly, 4e5, 5n1, 5n2 went to have lunch because we're going to the beach!
After that, we assemble at the foyer at 1:45pm and have some briefing and off we go!
On the bus, was sleeping and listening to my songs. Hahas!
And Chen Shan said that i'm emo-ing. Lols!
Reached, walk to the beach there, distribute the rubbish plastic bag and started to collect rubbish.
YEAH! It's the beach cleaning ya!
We're not going to the beach for fun! LOL!
Well actually, we didn't do much though. Haha! :X
Crap around and slack around after collecting "some" rubbish.
Listen to songs, play magic, walk around.
After awhile, break. We went to MacDonald and slack again.
Some ate meals while me, Chen Shan, Shee Leng, Celeste, Don, Yi Yuan ate ice cream.
After that, Mdm T went to find us and chase us out of the Mac. -.-
She call us to collect rubbish again! -.-
After that slack again and went back to school.
Well i think it's a waste of time in going to the beach and clean but, i like it cuz i can be with my friends.
Yeah, That's all for this post.
I'm stuck at this post for quite a long time btw. Lols.
Oyeah, remember to sign the GIRO FORM.

If i don't care, i won't get hurt.

248th post - I detest PE.

2010-03-01T18:51:00.008+08:00

Heads I win. Tails you lose.

Had PE today.
Last week I didn't run due to personal problem so i've to run today,
With those people who didn't pass last week.
Done warmups and started to run.
Of course, girls will be running 1st, after that then is guys.
First run was alright to me.
But when it comes to the ALMOST end of second round, i totally just feels like vomitting.
So i have to stop, for awhile.
And ya, i can totally feel the difference in "keep on running" and "stop then run again".
Whenever i stop running, after that i don't feel like running again.
16mins for girls to pass.
Guess what? I just failed by a few seconds.
Seconds, just a few seconds. Don't you all think that it's a waste?
That is why i detest PE so much.
No wait, it's more like, i HATE running.
Oh okay, nevermind.
Since next week is taking of height and weight, i won't be bothering myself about running again anymore.
But i definitely can feel the pain on my leg tml. (sad)
Oh well, i'm so tired...
I guess i will have a good sleep tonight...

If i don't care, i won't get hurt.

247th post - Tumblr!

2010-02-28T19:07:00.013+08:00

情孤单，爱认命

I've got a tumblr account! (Y) :D
And i'm loving it!
And oh, i didn't buy the JYSS sock! -_-
Tell me who will buy it?
It's such a waste of money.
I can't believe that the teachers are forcing us to buy! ZZZ!

FYI dear readers, yes, you can read and don't tag.
Of course you can.
But don't say i always don't blog cuz i'm not free.
Although ya'll always see i online in MSN,
That doesn't mean i'm free to blog.
Sometimes i'm tired too.
I'm definitely NOT BLAMING you guys.
Please don't get it wrongly.
Sorry if i've cause some misunderstanding.
But please understand that people will get tired too after studying.
Thanks.

If i don't care, i won't get hurt.

246th post - Nothing.

2010-02-27T13:10:00.006+08:00

There's one question i want to ask you people.
Do you people like short or long post more?
I've got no idea on what you guys really like yeah
Posting about what i did... to me is really boring. Hah.
So i'm thinking of posting some quotes and so to motivate everyone.
How's that? A good idea?

if i don't care, i won't get hurt.

245th post - Can you feel the pain?

2010-02-26T19:55:00.015+08:00

Can you feel the pain?

Sometimes i wonder how should i start my post.
Because it is always "Hi people" and so on.
Alright, anyways, i think i should either close down my blog or take the tagboard away.
I realised that even though i've post, there's still quite little people tag.
So i find it abit no point to put the tagboard.
Or should i just leave this blog dead and go on to my privatised blog?
Oh well, i'll see how first.
Because i'm also quite busy too.
Now i find that, blogging about what you done and that, nobody will really go read it.
It's just too long.
Sometimes i wonder, when you don't blog, people call/complain you to go blog.
Blog too long, people either don't read or scan through, without tagging or complain say too long.
(FYI, i hate people who calls people to blog but ownself don't tag.)
These kind of people, i will not entertain them when they call me to blog.
Last time i still will at least reply them in MSN.
Now they talk to me in MSN to call me blog, i won't reply.
Okay, that's all for this post.
Not too long, not too short, right?

Oya, and thanks to those who always tag me.
Much appreciated. (=

If i don't care, i won't get hurt.

244th post - Happy CNY / Valentine

2010-02-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

Opps, forgot to wish everyone a ...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

and

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

I guess I need you baby.

243rd post - 10 February; my bday

2010-02-13T12:19:00.016+08:00

10 February - Tan Jia Yi's BIG day

As promised, i MUST post it latest by today!
Sorry for the late post people cuz i've been busy.
So, my bigbig title have already said it all actually.
Yes, it's my birthday on 10 February!
My secondary school friends had definitely made that day a memorable day.
Okay, now i say this you guys probably won't know why.
So i shall start the story on that particular day.
At 12 midnight when i was sleeping, my phone just kept rang and rang.
Woke up by the fourth sms cuz it was noisy! (joking) =P
Yepps, everyone's busying sms-ing me to wish me a happy birthday!

Hahas, on 9 Feb, i slept earlier cuz i was too tired and i forgot about my birthday. -_-

So anyway, went back to sleep after saying lots of 'thank you(s)' to them. (=

Woke up at 6.15am and prepare to go school.

On the way to school, many people also sms-ed me to wish me.

Don sms-ed me 17 times of the same message just bcuz i'm 17! LOL!

Kinda cool yeah? But i have to press and press! Hahahaha!

But of course it's okay, cuz i press until very happy. xD

Reached school and waited for my friends to come up to the class.

Saw Zhimei, Celeste, JolynL and Lionel came in together afterwards.

One of them is carrying a plastic bag with a BIG BIG bear inside.

They passed it to me and i was like, "WOW! Thank you!"

The bear was bought by Zhimei, Celeste, JolynL, Lionel and Eunice!

Although Eunice is not in the school already but she still bought it with them, hahas.

Thank you very much, the 5 of you! xD

After everything, at 7.45am, the whole class sang the birthday song to me!

Thanks a lot to my class people! =D

After that, blah blah blah, go classes, do tests and it's assembly time.

It's about Total Defence Day.

They are celebrating it on the 10th because 15th is the Chinese New Year.

So they brought forward to 10th because just nice that day have assembly.

As Yi Yuan was sitting beside me, we started to chit-chat bcuz it's boring.

Chen Shan gave me a bouquet of fake roses~

Well, it is from both Chen Shan and Shee Leng~

After assembly, everyone goes off and i waited for my sister to go home with me.

Went home bath and did my things.

After that, baby called me to go down and pass her her laptop.

So, went down and passed her and walk with her for abit.

Saw Calvin, Chen Shan, Marcus, Shee Leng, William over there, waiting for me.

I was shocked! And baby was like laughing.

Saw Yi Yuan's bag but i didn't see him.

Was finding where is he while everyone started to sing Birthday song for me.

After the song, Yi Yuan came out with love-shaped balloons in his hands! O_O!

Was extremely shocked when i saw that scene -_- LOL!

And i was too touched and started to cry. ~_~
They tooked my photo! Ahh! LOL! It was soooo NOT NICE cuz my face is red.

And my hair is uber messy thanks to the wind!

Calvin call me to don't act cute -_- LOL!

I cry doesn't mean i'm acting cute ya!

I'm just touched and very happy till i cry mah~

Well, they're quite shocked when i cried too. Hahas! xD

So, i've got balloons, 2 fake cakes, and 1 real cake from them!

And a necklace which there put 'friends' from baby!

Hers is 'best' and mine is 'friends'.

So if we put it together, we're 'best friends'~!! =D

Took photos with them and my mom came and said goodbye and thanks to them.

Have to go out and eat dinner. ~_~

And since the place i went to eat dinner is near Yi Yuan's house,

My mom sent him home. He was like so paiseh. Hahas.

Ate hokkien mee after that cuz i don't know what to eat. O_O

Then went to buy my birthday cake.

Went home, do stuffs till 10pm and my mom came back and we celebrated.

Alright, thats all for that day.

Got chocolate from Faisal on 12 Feb for my birthday present. Haha.

So now, i re-thanks again.

- Noelle
(Although i know u didnt wish me on 10 Feb but its okay, cuz u have no choice. Thanks for saying happy birthday to me on ur blog. :D)

Those who wished me happy birthday on Midnight:

- Dina

- Shee Leng

- Jolyn Low

- Yi Yuan

- Chester

- Danette

Thank you all for staying up till so late and wish me.

Those who wished me at early in the morning:

- Zhimei

- Faisal

- Don

- Jordan

- 5N2

Hahas! Thanks aye for remembering!! and thanks to my class for the song!

Wished me in the Afternoon:

- Mei Yu

- Sylvia

- Eunice

- Bernice

- Angeline

- Ching Yee

- Zhen Yu

- Bob

- Kylene

- Facebook friends/cousins/schoolmates

Thanks guys~!! Sorry for late replies cuz i was in school! and thanks for those who wished me in Facebook!

Wished me at night:

- Wai Yi

Heys, thanks for remembering my birthday and thanks for wishing me a happy birthday.

Wished me at 11:59pm:
- Charlton

Heh, kor~ Thanks~!! =P

Wished me on 11 Feb:

- Ching Ting
- Chng Ching Yee

- Shin Yee

- Jing Yi

Thanks a lot guys.

To: Kimie baby, Calvin, Chen Shan, Marcus, Shee Leng, William, Yi Yuan

Hey!! Thanks for the shock!! HAHAHAS!

I guessed you guys should have wasted a lot of time for doing all those for me right?

Thanks a lot.

I'm so so so so so touched and happy by you guys.

What you all did really made my day.

It'll be the most memorable day ever for me.

Once again, thanks for everything.

I don't know how to survive happily without you guys around me.
Thanks, love you all ♥

----x.

So!! Many many thanks to people who wished me Happy Birthday and gave me presents!! I'm so touched!

Thanks guys! I'm so glad to have so many awesome friends and classmates! (L) =D

----x.

Okays... Sorry if i've missed out some people. This is all i can really remember.

Heart-shaped Balloons, Bear, 2 fake cakes, Necklace, Bouquet of roses.

Bear, 2 Fake cakes, necklace, bouquet of roses, REAL cake~

The necklace and the notes.

The bouquet of flowers!

The box of the fake cakes.

Fake cakes~

Another fake cake. xD

The real cake from my friends!

My birthday cake.

----------x.

Long post right, Marcus? LOL!
Okay, that's all~

----------x.

i cried a lot that day, cuz of you...

242nd post - No 'emo'

2010-02-03T19:03:00.005+08:00

Emo? No, i don't like this word.
I'd rather use sad.
It sounds cooler than emo.

Okay, let's see what's happening to me and my ultra lifeless life.
School. Yes school, what about it?
And then again, tests, tests, tests, and tests.
Homeworks all the time.
And i still do not understand why must we even go back to our CCA.
Don't tell me it's unfair to the people who're younger.
Please, look carefully and you'll know it's more unfair to us.
And oh, is much more unfair, okay?
You teachers are always calling us to revise, study, revise, study.
And always call us to complete the homeworks, and study for tests.
But in the end always call us go to CCA.
If never go, go detention room.
What is this? Go detention room?
It's a total waste of time.
Why even bother to call us to study for the next tests when that day we have CCA?
If you want us to pass the tests then don't give us tests on the next day where the day before the tests we have CCA.
Cuz nobody will really go and study it, understand?
Oh yes please, homeworks, don't chunk it with the tests + CCA.
Cuz for the both of the things, we wouldn't even want to touch it after CCA.
Please be a little fair to us, and stop complaining that the tests results sucks or whatever.
We don't have super brains. We can't simply just absorb everything when we're like so tired.
(and people, shut up about me sleeping late, cuz it's a whole damn different thing.)

So, next. What is it?
Relationship? Stop asking about it mansxzc.
There won't be anything happen between me and him.
Or whoever it is.
I'm just too suck.
Not liking me will be a better choice.
Oh no, it's more like, the BEST choice ever.

Right, anything else more?
School friends? I'm definitely fine with them.
Online friends? Sorry, i hardly talk to them now.
We're just too busy.

Okay, nothing else more.
Life-less isn't it?
And great, there will be tests on my birthday, and after my birthday.
So i must study.
But well, too bad.
I'll make myself like a queen that day, i'll do whatever i like.
At least for that day, of course.
I know i shouldn't, but, it's my birthday afterall.
Unless my 'O's is on that day.
Or else nothing will stop me for being the 'queen'.
And of course, not those unreasonable kind of queen.
Please don't misunderstand.
Cuz i hate explaining over and over again.
Cuz now, whatever i say, everyone won't really believe me.

I realise that i have been getting lesser tags.
Hmm.. Kay. Just continue to read and run.
I don't give a damn.

That's all.
Bye folks.

love? nah.

the truth is, i felt very lonely.

241st post - The best way

2010-01-29T20:47:00.005+08:00

You can never understand how i feel...
It is definitely MUCH MORE WORSE than HELL.

"The best way to escape from a problem is to SOLVE IT."

240th post - Happy Birthday Zhen Yu

2010-01-23T11:21:00.005+08:00

I realised that i have nothing to say after all the things that had happened.
I'm way too speechless.

----x.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO G.ZHEN YU~!!
Lols, happy birthday uh stupid di. =x
FOURTEEN years old le ley!
Don't be so childish le lah alamak!! xD
Don't watch too much animes also le lah!
I know you want win me right?!
Harnar, you already win me in OP and DC le mah! x.x
Try to study more ley!
Don't always muaythai muaythai muaythai also lah! LOL!!
Everytime also see you say muaythai one ley! Piang eh!!
Hahahaha, okay lah. Goodluck for everything yeah?
Especially your studies and muaythai~!! LOL!!!!!!!!

You this funny and stupid di, jie love you forever lah! LOL!!!!

239th post - Xiao Zhu's new album

2010-01-19T18:03:00.004+08:00

Erm... Back to posting?
Absurd schooling cirricular time with lots of crazy homeworks and tests.
It just makes us all going mad. MAD.
We're all so restless and super duper tired.
And Wednesday is the only day that can go home earlier...
But! BUT, we have to stay back tmr to clean our classroom!
May i ask what are the school cleaners for?
I'm sure they're here to clean up the school to get their pays, no?
So now why are there so many teachers complaining that our classroom is dirty, ya da ya da,
Which i don't even find it that dirty?
Even so if it's dirty, you people should just go and ask the cleaners and not ask us.
Please do not forget that most of the time, we're changing classrooms here and there for classes too.
We ARE walking IN the SCHOOL GROUND AREAS.
We didn't went out of the school or anything.
So if it's our shoe dirty, then blame the school.
And if really want us to clean, then don't give us so many homeworks and tests.
Already so tired still must clean, you all got problem is it?
==

Okay la, actually i'm not here to complain.
Is to post songs again~! (WEEEEE)~
This time round is 罗志祥's one.
Yeah his new album's out.
Titled: 罗生门.
Tracks:
1) 罗生门
2) 爱的主场秀
3) 生理時鐘
4) 习惯就好
5) 危险的念头
6) 爱疯头
7) 爱不单行
8) 搞定
9) 为什么要在一起
10) 老实讲
11) WOW (罗志祥 & 萧亚轩)
12) In your eyes (罗志祥 & 杨丞琳)

Yes i like the best are track no(s) - 1, 2, 3, 6, 7, 11, 12.
习惯就好, 爱不单行, 生理時鐘 totally rawks manszxc!!
Okay luhs, most songs are really nice.
If you guys have time then go listen to it. =)
I'm putting the songs in my blog soon......
Erm, my SOON is don't know when uh. (Sorry).. =x

------x.

Eh btw, plurks and twitters!
I won't be going in plurk and twitter anymore...
Until i'm free...
So, in the meantime, i will call my sister to help me plurk.
Please respond to it too okay?
Thanks♥.

*i know plurk and twitter is lame lahh*
but cuz i see my karma like so high ah, then don't want del ley. =x
ohohohoho~*

------x.

Hey Noelle, next post will be for you.
For now, i'm still thinking what to write.

238th post - Misses & love

2010-01-14T21:52:00.007+08:00

Oh i'm like, so damn tired now?
I'm browsing through my Chinese spelling(Ting Xie) now too.
Cuz i've got nothing better to do and tmr got spelling.
There's no harm in looking through it yeah?

And oh, facebook and plurk is really sickening.
It lags like crazy.
I don't know what is wrong with the internet.
I'm pissed off, but won't be too long as i'm too tired to get angry.
But this is really sickening, no lie. Extreme lag.

Well, school nowadays is crazy too.
The curriculum time and all those studies thingys, homeworks, cca too.
It makes us busy like mad kids.
And i've been sleeping very very late nowadays.
Around 12am+ maybe?
Have been like this for 2 weeks already.
I don't think i can take it any longer, so i'll definitely sleep earlier today.
Latest 10:30pm, and now it's already 10:07pm.

I should prepare my things, soon...
Last but not least, i want to thank KIMIE♥ darling...
For always talking to me. HAHA.
And hey babe, don't think too much already kays?
I know it's hard, but let's work hard together yeah? (=
Love you always and stay strong.
Don't worry, I'll always be there for you when you need me. ♥